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Chapter 2: White Haired Stranger

here's chapter 2 for y'alls! working on chapter 3! enjoy!

The squirrel fox sniffed along the path, following a scent. The long ears were twitching around, listening for any noise. Its long bushy tail weaved methodically, then suddenly stood up. The animal froze, lifting its head slowly. Then, with a sharp turn and a great bounding leap, it turned round and ran back to its master.

“Did you find them, Ronyo?” The animal chattered loudly, leaping up onto the man’s shoulders. The man listened for a moment to the animal chattering and barking. “Good. I only hope we are in time.” The man began walking quickly, in the direction that Ronyo came from.

A sharp bend in the road concealed the grim scene that the man soon came upon. Four men lay on the trail, and the air was thick with the scent of death. There were hoof marks all over, proof of a struggle. The easiest guess was marauders, but they tended to hold up coaches.

The man only thought about this a moment before going immediately to the first fallen man. He was dead, as were the next two men he went to. But the fourth, when the man felt for a pulse, had the faintest fluttering of a heartbeat. It was weak and irregular, but it meant he was still alive, barely.

The man immediately muttered under his breath, casting a weak spell of sustaining. For this man was a wizard, one of few who used Cil magic. It tended to be the safest of magics, using both the wizard’s energy and the expendable energy of whatever they were casting the spell on. But it was difficult to learn, and most bypassed it for other magic types.

The wizard picked up the man with ease. He would take the wounded man to the hut, where he could heal him. He knew much of healing herbs. And when the man was bandaged, the wizard would return to bury the fallen.

Waves of pain brought him out of unconsciousness with a scream of pain. Immediately his mind fell back into the sea of darkness, fainting. Again, a loud cry, consciousness, then darkness again. He remembered someone’s voice, and the sound of some animal. A third time, pain wrung him from his dark refuge, then released him. The man fell into a deep sleep.

The wizard stepped back, surveying his work. He had cleaned and bandaged the wounds, with poultices to help draw out any infection and heal faster. He had also given him a sleeping herb, so that the man would sleep deeply.

“Watch him, Ronyo, and call me if anything happens.” The squirrel fox let out a low, barking noise, then jumped onto the bed next to the wounded man. The wizard left the hut and returned to the three dead men.

It didn’t take long, for the ground was soft and easy to dig. Digging graves by the roadside, the wizard used the swords as markers, burying them up to the hilt at each grave head. He stood and paid his respects to these unknown fallen.

Returning to the hut, he found the man still asleep. That was to be expected; he would likely sleep for several days with few moments of awareness and lucidity. Ronyo chattered softly and jumped onto the wizard’s shoulders. Stroking the pet’s head, the wizard sat by the fireplace and wondered. “Who is this man, Ronyo? Why was his party attacked? And why was he, the most wounded of four, still alive?” The squirrel fox let out a low growl. Laughing, the wizard said, “Yes, yes, I mustn’t ask so many questions.” A serious look crossed his face. “But still…I wonder…”

Three days later, the man woke long enough for the wizard to give him water. After the man fell asleep again, the wizard changed the dressing on the wounds. They were already beginning to look better; no infection seemed to have set in.

The wizard thought a moment, but decided to leave the sustaining spell for a few more days, until his condition was more stable. The man’s hair color was beginning to fade, and the wizard suspected that the same effect was occurring with the man’s eyes. This was one effect of Cil magic; it could drain color of hair, eyes, and sometimes skin. It used this energy as it was most expendable, and when dealing with people, it was better to help them rather than worry about hair color.

Two days after that, the man awoke again, long enough to drink some broth the wizard made. The wizard did not remove the sustaining spell, but did replace it with a slightly weaker one, feeling that the man’s condition was improving greatly. His hair was more faded, and the wizard had seen the man’s eyes were also fading in color.

A day after that, the man was lucid enough to speak.

“What is your name?”

“I don’t know…” the man said, his breathing labored.

“Do you know what happened?”

“…I…don’t…know…” the man said, falling asleep before he could say more. These answers made the wizard wonder all the more.

It was another 5 days before the man could stay awake long enough to answer the rest of the wizard’s questions. But these questions achieved nothing, for the man recalled nothing. He didn’t know where he was, why he and his party were attacked, or even his own name. The wizard stopped questioning, however, for the man grew upset and agitated when he was questioned. The wizard also stopped the sustaining spell. By now the man’s hair was a silvery white and his eyes a light grey.

Another 5 days and the man could sit up, but not for very long. He was eating more, but still his memory was missing. The wizard and the man spoke little; the man was mostly silent, brooding, and the wizard did not want to aggravate the man’s lack of memory.

It was 14 more days before the man was mostly recovered. He still was weak, and the wounds, though closed over, weren’t wholly gone yet. But he wouldn’t stay still, too haunted by a blank memory. He took brief walks in the forest, often to the graves of his companions, in hopes that something would come back.

Without realizing it, the wizard and the man had become friends. Neither could say when, but they knew that there was a bond. The wizard had taken to calling the man Gelmir, an ancient word for stranger. Gelmir called the wizard by his name, Amras

One evening, a month and a half after Amras had taken in Gelmir, Amras was sitting outside his hut, carving symbols into a staff. Gelmir returned from the graves and sat across from the wizard. Amras looked up, then back at his carvings. “Do you remember anything?” He asked this question often, feeling the pain of loss that Gelmir felt and wanting him to remember. Gelmir shook his head. “Nothing.” He held his head in his hands, sighing heavily.

Amras stayed silent, and they said nothing for nearly an hour. Then he sat up, examining the staff. Satisfied, he said, “Here,” and offered it to Gelmir. Gelmir looked at the long piece of wood covered in symbols. A confused expression crossed his face, and he looked at Amras questioningly.

“It is a traveler’s staff, with a bit of magic to…assist said traveler. You will need a walking stick on your journey, of course.”

“Journey? What do you mean, wizard?”

“Why, the journey to find your lost memory. But don’t worry, Ronyo and I will travel with you. We can’t very well have you get lost and die after I spent so much time keeping you alive.” Amras stood and went to his hut. “We leave in the morning, and we will travel slowly.”

Gelmir looked at the closed door, then turned his eyes to the sky. Sunset pained the sky a brilliant orange and red and drenched the clouds with pink and gold. A tear slid from Gelmir’s eye. Why couldn’t he remember anything? Why did he survive? Why was he here? Why?

He sat beneath the night sky, asking and asking but receiving no answers. His mind slowed till only one question was evident. The stars only winked at him, singing him a lullaby of silence till he fell into a deep sleep.

Ronyo padded outside and curled up by Gelmir’s feet, guarding this unknown white haired man.

20060712

Chapter 2...almost

so i have an idea for Chapter 3, and if i have time to work on that, i'll post Chapter 2 tonight.
but i'm lazy, and i just got back from work, so i'm now super lazy
so...Chapter 2 post = maybe tonite, maybe not

20060711

Chapter 1: The Girl Who Never Cries

here's the first story in what i hope will be a series. the second story is finished already, but i'm stuck on ideas for the third, so i might not post it for a while.
enjoy!

Marie looked out over the field, watching over the small herd of goats she kept. They were grazing calmly, and they were all accounted for. Marie was sitting on a rock, holding her crook.

Philip gave her this crook; it made her think of him every time she saw it. He carved it for her, out of cherry wood, just before his departure two months ago. He traveled with her father as a guard escort. Her father had been called by the King of Brikhamshire for the yearly tax call, for he was lord of a small estate. All within Brikhamshire answered to the king, and the king answered only to the High King of Nevaand.

Marie smiled as she remembered the conversation they had the day before he left.

“Marie, I have a gift for you…and a question.”

She nodded, smiling, and waited for him to continue. He looked down nervously, then said, “The gift first.” He held out the long object that he had brought, wrapped in cloth.

She pulled away the cream-colored cloth, to find a beautiful crook, carved with precision and polished smooth. “Oh, Philip, it’s beautiful! Thank you!”

He smiled. “I carved it from the heartwood of a cherry tree…I hoped you would like it.”

“Philip, I love it. Thank you.” She looked at the crook, then back at him. “And the question?”

He took a shaky breath. “Well…you know…I leave tomorrow…”

“Yes,” she said, a little sadly.

“And…I wanted to ask you before I left…because I’m afraid that I’ll come back and find your heart stolen away…and I wouldn’t be able to live with myself, knowing I had this chance…your father says arrangements can be made upon our return…and he gives his consent, and blessing, if you accept…” He sighed in frustration. “I’m going about this all wrong…”

“What are you trying to say, Philip?”

“I’m trying to say…” he took her hand. “Marie, I love you. Will you…marry me?” He looked up finally, into her smoky grey eyes.

“Marry?” she said, softly. A slow smile crept across her face. “Truly?” Her eyes shone with tears, and she leaned forward and kissed him.

Drawing back, she looked deep into his black eyes. “Yes.” Then she laughed out loud, bringing a joyful smile to Philip’s face. “Come on, Philip! I have to tell mother!” She stood and ran down the hill towards the manor.

Philip stood slowly, watching her as she ran and laughed. He saw the crook on the ground, where she had set it, wrapped again in the cloth. He smiled and picked it up. “She said yes…” he whispered, placing the crook in the goat barn as he passed it. A surge of excitement filled him, and he ran after Marie, sweeping her into his arms and carrying her back to the manor.

Marie was brought out of her brooding by the sound of goats bleating and hoof beats. She looked up to see a coach on the road for the manor. She knew that coach, and with a joyous laugh, she called the goats and ran to the barn, dropping her crook by the door. The goats followed slowly, still munching on grass.

Marie ran to the manor, reaching it out of breath. The coach came up a moment after, rolling to a stop. The driver, Rafael, jumped down and opened the door. Out stepped her father.

“Father!” She ran to him and threw her arms around him. “Father! You’re back!” She stepped back to look at him. What she saw made her pause. “Father?”

His face was drawn with worry, and his eyes held an unspeakable sorrow. “Come inside, dear. I will explain there.” He turned away from her and walked up the stairs to the door. Marie stood a moment, watching him walk as if he had a great burden on his shoulders. She followed, as Rafael tended to the horses and carriage.

Her mother was standing in the hall, greeting her father and meeting with the same sorrowful man. He asked them to join him in the parlor.

“I have news.”

“Is it about the King, Richard?” her mother asked, anxiously.

“No, Daphne. We made it to the capitol and gave our taxes, without trouble. But…on the way back, we were attacked. A band of highwaymen, or mercenaries, I don’t know. But they came at us from both sides. Rafael spurred the horses, so the coach slipped out of the trap. But the guards…” his head fell in sorrow. “There was nothing we could do. They gave chase, but Rafael’s horses outran them.” He looked up at Marie, tears swimming in his eyes. “I saw Philip go down…stabbed three times by a saber, once in the arm, twice in the chest. No one could have survived that. I’m sorry, Marie.” He turned to his wife, who began sobbing on his shoulder.

Marie stared at the floor, confusion pouring through her. She looked up at her parents, with a puzzled face. She was in shock, unable to grasp yet the finality of what she had just been told.

Her mother looked at her, and a harsh sob tore at her throat. She ran out of the room. Richard turned to his daughter, and his heart clenched at the pain of this news. “He’s dead, Marie. Philip is dead. He’s not coming back. I’m sorry.” Fresh tears fell down his face, and he followed after his wife.

Marie sat there for a moment more, before standing and walking out of the room. By the time she reached the front door she was running. She sprinted back to the goat barn, where the goats had gathered, and collapsed amidst them. The goats gathered around her, understanding that something was wrong. She had raised these goats herself; from three runt kids her flock had grown to 15 healthy, lively goats. These were her pets; she didn’t raise them for milk, or meat, or wool, just companionship.

Marie sat up, her back against the wall of the barn. The goats nosed her hands and face, and she scratched their heads. He’s dead. He’s not coming back. The words rang in her mind. Dead. Soon, most of the goats went back to grazing. Marie stood and, picking up the crook, she called to the herd.

She stayed out, until near sunset, barely needing to herd the goats home as most had left already. When she returned to the manor, she went straight to her room.

Her mother met her at the door, but they exchanged few words. Daphne watched her daughter ascend the staircase with tears in her eyes. But she turned away, too sorrowful to offer any words of solace.

In the morning, Marie did not come out of her room. Her mother went upstairs to check on her when she didn’t come down for breakfast, but the sound of crying stopped her. She left the room alone after that, also warning the staff not to disturb her.

Marie was a strange child, in one way. She had never been known to cry. Even as a baby, when she was hungry or wet or tired, she did not cry. Even as a child, when she fell out of a tree and broke her arm, she did not cry. Even when one of her goat nannies died in birthing, and the kid with it, still she did not cry. Until now.

Now, her tears, filled with her sorrow and anguish, fell from her eyes. Now, when her one true love, her fiancée, was dead, she poured all her heartbreak into those precious tears.

Marie came out of her room at sunset. Her parents were in the parlor, and she went there first. Her parents, upon seeing her, felt a sharp pang of agony.

Her smoky grey eyes had lost their light. Her head was bowed ever so slightly, as if she bore a heavy weight. Her face was tear-stained and her eyes red and puffy, from hours of crying. She wore a plain, black dress, the color of mourning. And her hair, long beautiful golden hair, which had reached down to her knees, was cut short, to the nape of her neck.

“Mother. Father. I’m sorry for the trouble I have caused.”

“Trouble, dear? There is no trouble. You must take your time about this.” Daphne spoke, barely keeping her voice steady.

She shook her head, then continued. “I am in mourning, as you can see,” she said, with a slight laugh that held no merriment. “And my hair…I will stay in mourning until it grows out again.” Daphne knew that this was no small vow, for her hair grew quickly, and may be the length it had been in perhaps 3 years.

“Marie…” Richard tried to think of something to say, but his daughter interrupted him.

“Father, it’s alright. I have thought about this. This is what I will do. I don’t know if I will marry, but I cannot mourn forever.” She turned toward the door, but paused and gave her parents a half smile, with little feeling.

The sound of her footsteps faded. Daphne began crying softly, and Richard embraced her, feeling tears sting his own eyes. “She’s trying to be strong,” she said, through her tears.

“Yes, love. And she is strong. But she doesn’t yet know that being strong may not be what she needs right now. We cannot help her in this; she must learn it herself.” Daphne sobbed softly on Richard’s shoulder, saying nothing.

Marie went out to her goats in the barn. The gate was still open; the goats were able to fend for themselves. She stepped into the barn, feeling some consolation in the familiar smell. The goats came to her, nosing her hands and making soft bleating sounds.

“Philip…I’m sorry…I could have asked you to stay…I’m sorry…I’m sorry…Why didn’t I say anything? It’s my fault…my fault…” She glanced over, and saw the crook. The cherry wood crook.

She lay down on the clean, straw covered floor. The goats lay down with her, surrounding her with their familiar scent. Her eyes were dry, as they had been when she was a child. And she was determined to keep it that way.

20060703

Poem(s) Time: Save Me, Farewell

ok, so to recover from california vacation (not like there was much to recover from) (and by the way, yes i am back), i will post....Two poems for thee! I tried to find the least depressing ones...
hard to find in a sea of horrible, depressing poetry....

anyway...
oh, and don't forget! constructive criticism, destructive criticism, free money, whatever!



Save Me

I look out from the hole in the wall of my soul

Awaiting one who will come and rescue me

All the while building the wall stronger, thicker, higher

A glance of acknowledgement, anything to draw me out

Before it is too late, and my prison is complete

The prison of ice and stone I build around me

Do you see? Can you hear? Will you listen

To my silent pleas for help? Can you see anything

Beyond my ever changing mask?

I want to escape, but I am afraid

Afraid that you will hurt me again

This wall of mine grows ever stronger

A heart of stone and ice enclosing my soul

My inner being, my true feeling, hidden from sight

Hidden from anyone who might heal me

You speak to me; a glimmer of hope

But it only serves to drive my hope further into the ground

And drive my sanity out of this prison

The wall is complete. I cannot escape.

My hope fails. I am a caged bird.

My silent screams echo in my ears.

You might still save me, but only if you are strong enough

To break the wall and release my soul

If not, I will waste away and die alone.

Are you strong enough?

Can you break this wall?

Will you release me?


Will you?




Farewell

I love you

My one true love

My greatest wish

Is to be with you forever

But I have a secret

A terrible secret

That I can tell no one

Not even you

And now I must leave

Because of this secret

To keep you safe

Protect you from what is hidden

If you love me

Forget me now

Bury your memories of me

In the grave

If anyone asks,

I am dead

You know nothing about me

You never knew me

Someday, my love,

I may return

Not as myself

But still the one you know so well

If not, then I will see you

After death, in paradise

Until then, my love

Farewell