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Poem time: Translucent Soul

working on ideas for the next chapter
in the meantime, i have a poem for y'alls

and i don't say y'alls very often...

and...honestly, i have no idea what this poem's s'posed to be about...but...it sounds cool...i think....and it might not be done, now that i think about it....



Translucent Soul

A soul, translucent, distant, fading

Like a sheet of frosted glass

Empty, hollow, waiting, fainting

Hoping for a truth that lasts

This is it, the end, no longer

Shall this grieving last in vain

See the sun shine on tomorrow

Yet the moon glows still today

Like a thousand crystal goblets

Gleaming, hanging on the wall

Like the glass eyes of a child

Shining like a porcelain doll

Give us hope this empty morning

Void of what we need so dear

Give us faith so we shall see thee

Singing on for us to hear

Answer me a simple question:

Who shall stay and who shall go?

If the fate of these mere children

Is too grim, we need not know

But please do not refuse to tell us

What we ask, unless you find

That every word each person utters

Is the same as past gone by

Let not the past control the now

We are not them. We are ourselves

See the empty one who calls

Please help him see and find himself



20060909

Chapter 4: Silent Inn

chapter 4 already! another mostly serious one...don't worry, i'll write a funny one soon

anyway, here goes nothing!

Silent Inn

Silent Inn did not live up to its name. First off, it wasn’t an inn at all, but a tavern, the biggest and most respectable drinking establishment in the town of Birkley, in the county of Brikhamshire. Secondly, it was nowhere near silent. With hours ranging from before sunrise to far past sunset, and usually staying open on holidays, someone was always there. This was where men and women, young and old, would gather to share news, discuss whatever was on their minds, meet with friends and family, and most importantly, to drink. Beer and ale were served in equal abundance as tea and coffee; other drinks, such as wine, whiskey, and ale, were also available, as well as delicious food homemade by the proprietor’s wife, Millie Dorin, whom many affectionately called Aunt Millie.

There was always something to discuss; even if the only thing to talk about was the weather, they would come and talk. Today it was averagely full, for there had been few interesting tidbits of news recently, other than the funeral, and that topic had been pushed around quite a bit. The continuous drone of voices, punctuated by occasional bouts of laughter, filled the room today.

“Oy, where’s Jed today?”

“Didn’t you ‘ear? He’s down with summat ‘er other. His wife won’t let him out o’ the house.”

“Ah, a shame that is. Who’s gonna feed ‘is pigs?”

“His wife, o’ course!” This brought a few chuckles, which for the slightly drunken fellows meant a loud guffaw.

At a table across the room, the discussion was different, if no less humorous to those in the near vicinity.

“So I says to him, if you want the meat, you kill the pig!” Three of the women at the table broke into helpless laughter, and many of the rest chuckled for a minute or so.

At the bar, a small crowd surrounded a man who was telling a stupendously funny joke.

“And then the man says, ‘Hope you’re okay, sir, cuz that dog sure aint!!’” Everyone around him broke into uproarious laughter, some leaning on the counter for support, tears streaming down their faces.

At a small table, near to the middle of the big room, a slightly more serious conversation was taking place.

“Stephen, you’re shanorte ceremony is…next week, isn’t it?”

“Aye, Owan. Seventeen on Adulya next.” Shanorte, meaning “adult” in the ancient tongue, signified a youth’s coming of age. 17 was when youths became adults. Women were of marriageable age, and men, with the master’s approval, could end their apprenticeship and start their own business if they felt so inclined, or perhaps partner with the former master. The ceremony took place on the person’s birthday, and rarely were there double ceremonies; people with the same birthday tended to be different ages.

“Got yer eye on any fair maiden?” said Trevorr, who was 18 already, and married.

Stephen O’Connor only grunted. In fact, he did have his eyes on someone. Marie, daughter of Lord Richard. He had met her several years ago, when she came into town with her father. After that fateful encounter, he took every chance he got to see her. As a blacksmith, he was asked to shoe Lord Richard’s horses on occasion. And, on occasion, Marie came with the horses to assist with the shoeing. She would talk with him, and they gradually became friends. But a strange feeling lurked always in the depths of Stephen’s heart. He could not describe it, but whenever he saw Marie, his heart fluttered with joy, and when she smiled or laughed, it nearly flew from his chest. And whenever she left, his heart sank just a little.

He knew of Philip, and knew that Marie liked him. This made him a bit jealous, but seeing that smile on her face, even if it wasn’t for him, lifted his spirits. But the day she came into town wearing the black of mourning and with her hair cut short, along with her father who bore news of a funeral, his heart fell deep within his chest. What had happened, to make her so sad? Her eyes lost their spark, and her face was downcast. When the story was told in full, he understood: Philip, along with three other men who were acting as guard for Lord Richard, had fallen in a bandit’s attack.

They had the same birthday, Marie and Stephen. The Shanorte Ceremony would have been a double for the first time in five years. But now, with Marie in mourning, she would not have a Shanorte. She would not even consider marriage until her mourning was over, and only she knew how long that would be.

“She looks at Stephen with those liquid fawn eyes…anyone would fall for that gaze. She’s obviously smitten.” Stephen was suddenly brought back from his brooding. “What?” His obliviousness brought several chuckles, then Owan, the village healer, explained.

“We were just talkin’ about Rachel O’er-the-hill. If you haven’t noticed, she has her eyes on you.”

“Huh. I didn’t notice.” He sipped at his drink thoughtfully.

“Hah! Right. You didn’t notice her fawnin’ looks in yer direction?” A fourth man at the table, John, interjected loudly.

Defensively, Stephen responded, “No, I didn’t.”

John backed off, saying, with not a little hint of sarcasm, “Right. Okay. Whatever you say, Stephen.” Picking up his drink, he took a long draught, then said, “I mean, it’s not like I notice when pretty girls make eyes at me.” He ducked as a handful of peanuts flew at him. “Alright, alright! I’ll stop!” he managed to say through his chuckling.

Stephen sat back, glaring at John. They were friends, John and Stephen, since childhood. John was far more outgoing than Stephen, but Stephen stuck up for him when he got into trouble, which was often. He had not admitted to John of his feelings for Marie, but he knew that when he did, John would keep it all secret. He was not the type to betray someone’s trust; though he was outspoken, he most definitely was not a gossip.

The conversation drifted off onto other subjects, but Stephen’s attention was elsewhere. The other men at the table noticed that and respected his silence, though they could not help but draw him in on certain inside jokes. Stephen laughed with them when they wanted him to laugh, but mostly he drank his ale, green eyes staring into nothingness. He stared, and thought. He would tell John soon, but not yet. For now, he wanted to think about these feelings. Think, and wait on the lady.


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Chapter 3: Funeral March

chapter 3 finally! and...chapter 4's almost done...maybe
so, here goes ..something!

Funeral March

No rooster crowed this morning, as the sun’s rays just began to creep over a small village with its nearby castle. Light reached tentative fingers across darkened streets. Clouds above shone in varying shades of pink and orange, reflecting dawn’s overpowering joy at a new morning. All nature exalted at another beginning, shining with promise of many hopes and joys.

All, except for the villagers of this small town.

The tears that fell were not those of joy. Black funeral clothes reflected no promise of beginning. Stony faces held little hope on this bleak day.

The procession began at the castle and continued through the small village, increasing in number at every street and cross street. Sad faces peeked out from closed curtains, shedding their own tears for the dead.

At the head, no wrapped bodies could be seen, for there were none to bury this day. No sound could be heard, for the tears that fell were the tears of silence. Every eye shed tears, even the eyes of the children who did not understand, and the old who did not remember. Every person cried this day.

Save for one.

A young woman led the funeral march, flanked by her father and mother. This young woman had short blond hair and smoky grey eyes, walking with a sure step. Her eyes were dry and her shoulders set, like a great leader into battle. Few could understand why her eyes, among a whole village of mourners, were dry this day. Her mother knew, as did her father, but even if it were to be explained, those around her now still would not see. But this day was not for questions or answers. It was a day to mourn.

Time passed quickly, and soon the procession reached the cemetery at the far end of the village. The crowd assembled, spreading in a circle around the four small cavities in the dirt. Four men approached, bearing small stone markers with words engraved on them. Simple markers, for a simple funeral.

As a tradition, no words were to be spoken over the dead. The only sound would be singing, if an individual were to sing over the grave. There was an order to things, even funerals, and even who had right to sing over whom. A spouse had first right to sing, a widow for her husband or a husband for his deceased wife. After spouse came parents, a mother for her son or a father for his daughter. Then children, a son for his father and a daughter for her mother, and then siblings, a brother for his sister and a sister for her brother. If none of these could be found, then perhaps a cousin or another distant relative would sing, or else none would sing.

The crowd settled in a circle, and three women stepped forward, two elder and one younger. Mothers, for their sons, and a sister for her brother, would sing this day. Yet, no fourth stepped forward, for the fourth man had none to mourn for him. Tears streamed down the faces of the three as they stood at each respective headstone and began their song. Three voices, intertwined, bleeding with sorrow, rose to the blue sky overhead. Two songs, harmonized in pain, bringing more tears to the eyes of many. A keening wail, that of a mother for her beloved son, that for a sister for her beloved brother.

A fourth cry rose up, more mournful than the two songs, contradicting sharply with the melodies. Many looked up in shock. This voice, this song, was not that of a mother for a son or a daughter for a father, or even a sister for a brother. This cry, this the most mournful of mourning songs, was the Widow’s Lament.

The most painful to hear, and to sing, the Widow’s Lament contradicted all other melodies and songs, calling out the fury of a widow’s agony, causing all hearts to feel the same mind-numbing pain. The only that came close to this much sorrow was the Husband’s Lament, but not even its mournful tune could match the intensity of this song.

The songs continued to wrench at each other, until the Mother’s song and the Sister’s song were completed; the third continued on, biting deep into ears and hearts of all around.

The blond haired woman, with smoky grey eyes, knelt before the last headstone, crooning her terrible song, for indeed it was she who raised her voice in defiance to the laments of the mothers and the sister. As the last note echoed from her lips, she reached her hand to the gravestone and traced the name there, whispering it in her heart over and over.

A child pushed his way to the back, where his mother stood, tears in her eyes. “Mama?”

“Yes, child?” The woman’s sparkling blue eyes gazed upon her young son.

“Why’d they mark the stone wrong, Mama?”

“They did not mark it wrong.”

“Yes they did. The widow’s singing, but they didn’t mark her name on the stone marker.”

The woman tensed, and her tone changed to one of slight urgency. “Are you telling me that there is no widow’s name marked on that stone?”

The child nodded. “They marked his name, and how he died, and his age, but no widow,” he said, matter-of-factly, yet with a hint of sadness, for who could not be sad when everyone else weeps?

The mother’s gaze turned up, her confusion stopping her tears. No widow…yet a woman sang the widow’s lament. What does this mean? Is it possible that the stone carvers made a mistake? Never! Then, why did this woman sing a Widow’s lament over an unmarried dead man?

Lament completed, the blond haired woman rose, smoky eyes void of tears. Even after singing that song, no tears were shed by her. As she stood, the woman in the back recognized her as the lord’s daughter, adding to her confusion. She was not married either! Why should she sing the Widow’s Lament? What did it all mean? Her questions would not be answered on this day, for it was a day to mourn. The woman took the hand of her child and the arm of her husband, and walked slowly back to their home. Questions lingered, not just in her mind, but in the heads of many of the villagers.

The crowd dispersed, but the young woman remained at the gravestones. Her parents stood at the edge of the cemetery, waiting their daughter. A man approached, and the woman looked up.

“Why?” The man’s voice quietly asked, rough with emotion and tears. “Why did you sing?”

“Who else would sing for him? None could have claimed the song, and I cannot stand by and let him be forgotten.” Her gaze turned back to the stone before her. Still her eyes were dry, no tear marks staining her cheeks.

“But why that song? Why the Widow’s Lament?” His voice rose slightly, in agitation and confusion.

Her grey eyes sought his green eyes. “We were to be married. What else would I sing?”

20060904

Dang it, it's been like 3 months...

I know i haven't posted in forever...i'm sorry...

don't kill me....please...


anyway, i have a dA account, so if you wanna check out what pic's i've posted there, you're welcome to. http://princessrosella.deviantart.com
and i'm working on the next part of the Series, so once i get that done, i'll post it.
i'm moving chapter 3, cuz i decided that the scene i'm writing needs to come first.
so...yeah

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